Bear in Mind

vintage nude-shirt, riotous-skirt, forever21-shoes, rattle&bites-clutch

Have you ever felt the longing for something but deep inside you knew it can't be fulfilled? I honestly hate my bone structure, my clumsiness,  my fat belly and arms, my skin tone, etc . yesss.. we're all humans after all... To be good enough is not enough this day, we live in a society that demands for perfection. Everybody wants to be fragile, petite and flawless. Somebody just told me to lose some weight, i know i know that i have big bones and unfortunately i love foods as much as i hate them, the thing is, just like a quote from Austin Powers movie said " I can't stop eating. I eat because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I eat. It's a vicious cycle. Now, if you'll excuse me, there's someone I'd like to get in touch with and forgive... myself."

2 days ago i was a little bit shocked when i know that all of the(long haired) models will strut the runway with their clean and curly pony tails. I never pulled my hair back just because i wanted to hide my round and chubby face, it's ironic that deep inside i have a very low self esteem but thank God with every support from my family, friends and most of all my boyfriend i sometimes think that my life is worth living for and i don't need to be  petite to be beautiful, vice versa for all the petite dolls in the world!!!  Maybe 1 month from now i will be the petite one among all the gigantic Caucasians.

image courtesy of ivan victor lucas, MUA- ka ridha audrey

 For every sarcastic and insensitive ladies please never call someone Fat just because you knew that you're thinner and that F words are the most painful word to hear, yes they will took it personally and yesss bear in mind that maybe someday they will be as thin as you but you will still have the worst personality ever.I've learned my lesson and for the past 6 years I'm so against bullying, I'm very PROUD to say that i never and will never be the very mean and obnoxious "anon" who spit hundreds of mean words to someone that they don't even know. If you hate me please kindly give me your phone number and email or at least lemme see your name. Screw all the lowlifes anon.
Last but not least, Mr.B took those lovely photos two days ago after i became one of the models in an event(i will post it later). I wore 3 of my favorite pieces that day, my mom's vintage shirt, riotous bodycon skirt and my rattle&bites clutch! Happy belated independence day INDONESIA! ciao bella!