love and relationship advice

You are complete and there's nothing wrong with you.... I repeat those words inside my head over and over again until i believe that i am enough and my past will never define my future. That happiness will come for those who believe in themselves and the universe will conspires to give whatever that you want. Only if you truly believe in yourself, you are the key to your own success or failure.
I questioned myself last night and what happened to me in the past make me feel as if i'm so hard to be loved sometimes. But you need to feel and be complete first before you try to open yourself to anyone else. You need to heal, take your time. Stop rushing... that's what i told myself this year.
Be complete and be happy in your own solitude. Stop comparing your life with others and just do things that please you. You deserved all the best things in life and you could reach your dreams just like the people you admire the most.
You'll miss the most beautiful things and moments in life when you could only focus on your dark side. You're too  precious and wonderful to just exist without becoming the best version of yourselves in life. In the third month of 2018, let's just reflect ourselves, strengthen our beliefs and love more. Love yourself the way you want to be loved by others.... I got inspired to write this post by all of my friends who didn't stop to try to make me believe that i'm worthy of love and a few people who tirelessly trying to convinced me that i was created with a purpose and sometimes the greatest moment in life happen when you don't plan it. I hope your soul will heal and i'm sending my warm hugs to you. This is a love and relationship advice from me to myself....

Photographed by Michelle Tumewu of Momentobyarla
Dress: Patrick Owen
Shoes :Witchery

a trip to taiwan

I don't know if you miss our trip to Taiwan as much as i do. I miss the laughter, jokes, food, culture, the togetherness and of course the karaoke session. We bonded last year and can't wait to be reunited for 5 days again this year.
Our trip to Taiwan is so memorable, i learned how to dance to the beat and also accepted that maybe dancing to my own beat is not a bad thing after all. It became my trademark for sure. Thanks to Jovi ahahaha...
We went to lots of beautiful places in Taiwan, from museum to night market to wishing upon the lanterns. We eat at the original Din Tai Fung and saw the owner there too! From street food, $6 bubble tea to an endless fine dining course. We enjoy our Taiwan trip so much especially with China Airlines premium economy and business class service. I'm impressed and can't wait to fly with them again this year. Life after Taiwan? 
We're so busy doing or own work, a lot of things happened. My dear Clara Devi is Mrs.Gempa now. Sonia went to Poland to meet her boyfriend, i went back to Sydney for a month, Jovi went to UK chosen by youtube global, Maria and Eliz are currently writing their own book, Anaz our nyai(or queen) is busier than ever globe
trotting in heels, Hans is still eating the best food in the world, you could see Patgouw everywhere in tv or your cousins wedding even your sweet seventeen party too, Andy found his forte and you'll soon see him in tv too! Calvin our photographer has a wife after Taiwan. So cray right? Time flies so fast and what about me?
Well... I met a few people, accepting myself and loving my me time more than ever, i went to Bali when Mount Agung erupted, that's crazy! I collaborated with lots of brands and my career is going to the right direction for sure, i'll travel more this year and will soon revamp my website. I am content and can't wait to see what i could do next.... As for love life, i got a few advises yesterday from Jovi's mom.... I always imagine how hard to be loved i was til it became my reality, i undervalued myself and always think about the worst that could've happened. I attract the wrong people because of what i think about myself. What if, i let myself to dream a little bit bigger? Just like my career but to my love life? Well.... Let's see if i'm still the same person on our next trip to......
to be continued....

A for Alpha

As an Aries i like to be independent, to deal with my problems on my own; to be the boss of my life. When i heard the name of the brand Alpha60 as a part of Australian Fashion Chamber last year i was hooked instantly. No doubt, the construction of the outfits, the silhouette, the juxtaposition between soft and structured. Intricate fabric treatment and a little dose of quirkiness. Every piece is an art, an investment piece that you could wear over and over again.

i love how easy and effortless the looks are and of course, i have an obsession with jumpsuits since last year and so happy when i saw this one! I can eat everything that i want and still look chic ahahaha. Thank you Alex from alpha60

Photographed by Daryl Ariawan 

Wearing Alpha60                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

Exploring Sydney Day 1

There are moments that define your life more than the others. Feelings that change you as a person forever. Thoughts that you playback over and over again like a broken records in your head.

Solipsism:
the theory that only the self exists, or can be proved to exist
 

 When i hear Dan the photographer explained it. At first i associated the word with narcissistic, self-centered, ignorant; bottom line... It was all negativity. But, after he explained it more i could understand and could somehow agree with the theory behind the word. Nobody could feel the way you feel, you could never really feel your bestfriend broken heart nor your husbands's disappointment. Feelings are utterly subjective and personal. You couldn't really say "i feel you" really... Because you can't..... or prevent someone to recall their memories.

Our body has its own way to be alive, we're different from one another. We might had a similar experience or feelings but who are we to measure the depth of somebody else's feelings? I learned to not to judge or trying to find out how other's mind work. I learned to let them be, i realized i could definitely try to explain my point of view but i know you could never change others. We all live in our own universe and we're all have the universe inside us.

That being said... Why am i in Sydney again?

On my last trip to Sydney i met lots of cool people and i enjoy the vibe in Sydney so much i couldnt help myself to say yes when i got the invitation to come and collaborated with a few Australian designers and brand in Sydney but yes i do wear indonesian brands here too. Indo represent here! whooppp whooop

I collaborated with Dan Gray and Charlotte from Maq Cosmetics AU and wearing Gaudi Clothing and together we'll create my Australian Journey. These are the first outfit and y'all may all know i had the photoshoot at the opera house. 

More stories, more blogposts and more of my random thoughts during my trip in oz soon...

Enjoy!

First Roadtrip Experience to Bruneck, Bolzano & Lake Braies

Have you spent your new year's count down alone? I experienced that before, as much as i love solitude and not having to clean all of the mess in the first day of the year, sharing your last and first seconds of the year with your closed ones will make you realize how bless you are and it's all worth the mess.
I checked a few of my lifetime bucketlist in 2015, but oh don't get me wrong! I don't believe in the new year new me mumbo jumbo, but i do believe in making a bucket list inside my head so that i could checked my own list and hopefully learn some precious lessons along the way. In 2014 i went to US for the second time and spent my new years in Vegas with my family. My video collaboration with Chictopia that we made in SF back then had become their most viewed in their youtube channel until now!
2015 was full of fun memories too, I launched my own  youtube channel, working for various magazines and projects here in Milan, my boyfriend came to visit me here in Milan, I'm a master graduate, met new people and bestfriend + getting closed with my long time bestfriend along the way. So i thought having a little more fun at the end of the year won't hurt at all right...
The truth is, i thought i ask too much and there you go... if you follow me on instagram(if you haven't then follow me NOW) you'll know that my hand was bitten by a cute albino french bulldog. But it made my year end road trip unforgettable for my friends (of course) and myself. *LOL* After all the sing along, driving, handphone charger arguments, listening to my "only two songs" playlist, boardgames, running at the hospital hallway and all the yummy food of Bruneck and Bolzano; we finally arrive at the frozen lake of Braies!
I saw it first in pinterest and instagram, so thank you pinterest! Cause the view was and is breathtaking, I wish i could share all the pic with you guys but here are my best 15 pics of my first roadtrip experience! I can't believe i walk on lake Braies and could share the moment with my friends. It's like we're living inside a postcard or your pinterest! My feet were numb despite my (failed) attempt on having an extra fur padded insole; the magnificent frozen water of lake Braies is the coldest ground i've ever step on. My hand warmer was useless but our breath were taken by the mesmerizing view of the surrounding so in the name of YOLO we could stand and took lot's of pics and video an hour or so.
2015 was an unforgettable year indeed. It was full of laugh tears, hugs, lessons and memories that 2016 should work hard to measure up to now. How's your 2015 and what's next for 2016?

Photographed by Maytridan Yoshua and Donald Aditya
Coat: Cos
Boots: Steve Maden
Bag: Aesthetic Pleasure
Dress & Faux Fur Hoodie: Zara
Vest: Duma Official

Chateau de Versailles

Checked my bucket list wandering around Versailles for hours with my love one. It's like i'm living my dream, we created our memories together, looking at those king and princess bedrooms, i couldn't believe it was real! How can someone live in a place like this? Full of crystal,gold, arts and basically the best things in life.

This will be a mashed up of outfit, couple and travel post all together, i want you all to travel with me or as if you're there too with me and my boyfriend!

So here we go, the step by step guide to go to Versailles from Orly airport:
1. Took the shuttle bus from orly airport to 'Pont de Rungis (2 or 3 stops)
2. Buy a rer ticket to Anthony 
3.  From Anthony you need to find RER C to stop of Massy Palaiseau
4. Change the train to Versailles Château/Rive Gauche 
5. You need to walk for 10 minutes from the station to Palace of Versailles.

Hope you could enjoy Versailles with your love ones someday and do share with me if you do!

Photographed by Ivan Victor Lucas and myself
Hers:
Top: MSBHV
Shorts: Zara
Shoes: Adidas superstar slip on
Hats: &Otherstories
Him:
Top: Bershka
Denim: Asos
Shoes: Adidas Yeezy Boost 350