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2.6.13

Castle Ground




 blazer:Dad's blazer from 1993
dress:H&M
beanie:Dignitycloth

Wow, it's almost a month since my last outfit post, i gained a few more pounds i guess, i feel so ugly i decided to not to post my photos... I usually have 12-16 photos and they indicated how high was my self-esteem back then, and now.... after the exam, weight gain and a full dose of stress, 4 is better than none right? I'm an emotional eater since i was 10 years old. i can't deal with pressure and sadness. Everybody knows when i feel fat and ugly; black and oversized clothes are my only bestfriends. Maybe just maybe y'all have the same problem with me. I just want you to know that you're not the only one.... I wish i could say that i'm happy to be fat but it's not the right thing to do because my relationship with food were never right. Sometimes i hate those size zero girls who keep telling me to stare at their "chubby" cheeks.well.... they clearly don't know how it feels to be fat. I'm trying to pull myself together right now. thank you for the emails, formspring, tweets etc guys. Please keep praying for my father's health *bighug* i believe that every single prayer count. ciao ciao....

p.s: i'll be in jakarta next week :)

24 comments:

  1. Hai cici kece <3

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  2. Don't care of foot! and eat everything!! ;D
    You look wonderful... ♥

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  3. nice shoes<3 btw your hair look so cool!!

    asdfghjklita.blogspot.com

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  4. Hey,
    great pictures and an amazing outfit. I love it!
    Kisses
    Tabea

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  5. Omg love this outfit! Stunning photos and scene as well! Hope that your father gets well soon! x

    http://rosalindatj.blogspot.com

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  6. one simple word, stunning <3


    warmest regards,
    Miss Aa
    www.miss-aa.com

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  7. Loving these wonderful pictures <3

    xoxo
    http://singingthumbelina.blogspot.com

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  8. freaking like this style :)
    black is great

    http://ollyvialaura.blogspot.com/2013/06/campus-look-love-best-enjoy-most.html

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  9. absolutely loving the all black look, you should re-dye your hair soon! the location looks absolutely stunning, anyways, I hope your father recovers soon! he is with all of your readers' prayers

    Afraid Of The Lights on http://reinhardtkenneth.blogspot.com

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  10. wish you good luck and wont fail the exam (just read ure prev post) :) black is always be a perfect bestfriend <3

    chrisnawatinovia.blogspot.com

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  11. lovely look dear and you don't look fat at all! >.<

    By the way, I have a new giveaway on my blog for Indonesian blogger! The prize is UP shoes from Dskon.com <3 Please visit my blog to join :
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    Thank youuuu <3

    Caroline

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  12. Absoultely love your outfit and how you played with black tones, I've been obsessed with my black maxi skirt as well lately. Also, the background is divine, so peaceful and it creates the perfect contrast!

    Have an amazing week,
    Mary x

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  13. love the vintage blazer, gorgeous look! get well real soon for you daddy :)

    Letters To Juliet

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  14. Great look! Every piece fits together so well and your hair is the extra kick. And you're not lloking fat at all!
    Kisses, Sally

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  15. Awesome pics, and I love your hair!
    I don't see you fat, but I admire your honesty! Many girls are not happy with their bodies but they don't admit it publicly, they just say they feel comfortable as how they are, when it's not like that at all. Well, anyway I repeat I don't see you fat :P
    And I don't know what happened to your father because I'm new in your blog, but I hope he gets well :*
    xx

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  16. You look nothing like ugly, you are gorgeous! Love this dress, so pretty on you :)

    xo

    Ashley

    Southern (California) Belle

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  17. Love your skirt! You always amazed me :)

    xoxo, Mich

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  18. Gorgeous 90's blazer!! =)=)
    xx

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  19. you have amazing hair! and i really like that blazer :)

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  20. what a stunning style. love the view :)

    http://hellodida.blogspot.com/

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  21. love your post. I fell in love with your style. do you want follow each other?
    let me know .... thanks

    naomihtris.blogspot.com

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