Twenty Two

I can't believe that I'm twenty two years old right now and today by far is the loneliest birthday ever, thanks to the easter break. As time goes by i really know the people whom i should keep in my life and the ones i should let go.
Another lesson to learn...
 I always think that I'm still young enough to make all of the mistake I've made before, i love to challenge myself and to test my limits.
I love to learn new things while i still can. I want to live my life to the fullest in a positive way so when i'm 70 years old i won't regret a lot of things.
I've encountered a lot of inspiring people during this past three years, i feel super blessed. Yesterday i just knew that a person whom i admire was impressed by my work and surprisingly my style! Yes I'm still twenty two years young, and i feel super honored to be able to work with the legends in Indonesia's fashion industry.
 My sunday school teacher once told me to live like a sponge, absorb everything, keep everything in your mind, learn as much as you can and seek God every second of your life. I absorb a lot of things since then. Sometimes i absorbed a lot of bad things and thoughts, negativity is a toxin and you need to detox not only your body but also your soul sometimes. You need to let go of the past, you need to be angry! Yes be angry for a good half an hour ALONE. So that you won't hurt anybody, i was super childish a few weeks ago when i was angry and i put everything in one of the social media. I feel super childish and i realized that it was super obnoxious to be angry in public. I'm not a teenager anymore right!?
Last but not least i learned to be selfless, it's always about me me me and me! You can't feel the true happiness if you're not willing to share, i was inspired by a friend of mine, maybe you know her already, her name is Talisha Quinta she used to be a fashion blogger years ago and instead of a big party she made a charity for those in need of clean water, you can check her charity http://my.charitywater.org/talishas-turning-legal and i would like to celebrate my birthday by contributing on her charity work too. So let's celebrate my birthday together by donating to Talisha's charity project! *kisskiss* 

Don't forget to join my Birthday Giveaway HERE coz i'll announce the winner tomorrow!

Top&Sunnies: &OtherStories
Denim:Cheap Monday
Sandal: Juju Shoes
Bag:Gifted from le boyfriend
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Sonja's birthday

 I can't believe that it's almost 1 month since my pretty sonja's birthday bash! First of all fank choo sonja for inviting me and Ninotchka's cakes are the bestttt. I never skipped sonja's birthday since she became my partner in crime, our long distance relationship was almost over. I'm so proud of her, she's maybe a year younger than me but her achievements are bigger than her petite body. happiest birthday(again) sonya! You know how much i love choo(and your mom ahahah).

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What makes me smile?

My second year of marangoni was officially over, my exam was not as glorious as i expected, yes if you follow my twitter i cried in the exam room, i feel like a failure. This is the lowest point of my life as a student, didn't sleep for a few days and a lot of problems happened. I feel like a loser, the fear of not only disappointing your parents and love ones who believe in you but also yourself. and oh at first i thought i could do anything by myself and I'm enough, but the reality bites like a nutcracker, no matter how hard your shells are, reality will crack em open, but in the end there's no one to blame but me, the timing wasn't right, and i've learned my lessons to not to complicate myself, to be tougher and i will not stop here. I hope the teachers won't fail me, fashion world is tougher than you think, the school director "strong" words made me feel like a loser, i'm at the point where i really wanted to say enough is enough and i didn't have any talent in the fashion industry, i just wanted to go home and cry.My itunes was so helpful it played "fix you" by coldplay last night, i know i know even my itunes was so melancholic and dramatic as its owner. I'm not in the mood to even look at the clothes right now, but i promised myself to make it right, and if you already hit the rock bottom, let's pull ourselves up together. Today i saw this video of me and my friends during my birthday party, thank you so much for coming, videoing, editing and posting this video Danys, ling ling , Deka and all of my fashion hungry and interior junky in Milano. When i thought that Milan sucks and all of the pressure, you guys taught me to enjoy the simplest things, iphone flash, pocket cam,a laptop, a few bottles of champagne and peach tea(for me, i'm allergic to alcohol so y'all know that i didn't have a super glam legal day party in the club). Thank you topher(the guy in slo mo) and Hiro(also the guy in slo mo) you're the perfect hosts ever. and.... without any longer overdue enjoy my not so glam but super fab moment. *kisskiss*